Darling read my lips, we're going down like sinking ships.

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Friday

Lately...
Joey and I broke up but right now we're acting like we're together but not really together. Get it? I don't.
It's whatever though, as long as he's happy and so am I.
I pierced my ears two days a go and I'm waiting two weeks then I'm going to gauge them. I'm only going to 0's though. Bigger would probably be gross. I'm not going there.
I've gained friends and lost some over things that aren't my fault. I'm being blamed for things I didn't do. Drama is getting terrible in school right now and somehow I've been put into it by just sitting here. It makes me not want to go to school.
Joey is getting homeschooled by his Grandma and Monday is his last day. I'm extremely sad because now I deffinately will not want to go to school. I'm going to miss seeing him after every single class. After school waiting on his bus and him holding me and telling me sweet things. Having the longest goodbye ever when his bus comes. Meeting in the library every single morning and having that one weird overly enthusiastic teacher always come over and talk with us.
I'll live though. He'll have a nice time at his Grandma's.
The end.
p.s. sorry for the lack of posts. ): I've been very depressed.
I'll write more when I don't have company. <3
I have much more to say.

Posted by KaylaDesirae | 8:30 PM

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Monday

I made a flickr

I have new stuff on deviantart

check it out, <3

So I've had a horrible past month. Joey has been in the weirdest mood ever and he wont even tell me what's wrong. I feel helpless. I ask him to just help me through too but he can't, because he's in a bad mood...

I feel lonely.

I just have to wait for it all to get better...

bright sides~

I'm getting new glasses today. I'll probably take a picture with them.

I'm going to gauge my ears.

I'm learning slowly but surely more on my piano and I'm excited. Once I get everything totally down I'll start writing songs again.

My photography is getting better but I need a new camera.

Jake has been a sweetie for me. :3

Yes, I'm putting him in my blog again, because he's the best.

Thanks for dealing with all of my rants and venting Jake~

So anyways, I'm going to eat some pizza and chill because I'm not in the best mood.

I also really don't have much to say. I can't think straight.

Posted by KaylaDesirae | 3:52 PM

Blame the weather;

Sunday

I blame the weather for getting me sick.

I blame the weather for being suddenly depressed.

I blame the weather for locking me inside.

I blame the weather for my lack of sleep.

I blame the weather for my uncontrollable shaking.

I blame the weather on that fifteen year old kid dying that my grandma is so sad about.

I'm sad too, and I didn't even know him.

I blame the weather on my mood swings.

I blame the weather for the dead car battery.

I blame the weather for having to get a heater for the living room.

I blame the weather for a crappy new years.

The weather should do me a favor and keep me out of school.

I've been in a horrible mood lately and I really do think it's the weather.

This happened during summer when all I could do was sit inside because I was so sick, it gets me depressed.

I just hope I don't start having serious panic attacks again like I did.

I've been bad mood swings and Joey has been barely texting lately. I think it's my fault. If he is slow at texting back I'll say "slooow?" and he'll go "sorry" I'll say "are you busy?" he'll say "not really, anymore."

That for some reason sets me off and gets me so sad. I get the feeling of being ignored and forgotten. He could have said be right back.

Then he'll notice I'm in a bad mood and he'll say "Do I need to go?" I'll say "no, I don't want you to. I'm just in a weird mood. ):"

Then I feel worse because he feels bad that I'm in a bad mood.

I blame myself now.

Am I overreacting?

I think so.

I have a feeling it'll only get worse for me when school starts. School is too stressful. My mood is already bad enough.

I don't know what to do.

Posted by KaylaDesirae | 12:24 PM

I love you, Joey

Saturday

Posted by KaylaDesirae | 6:48 PM

fuuuuuck

Sooo, new years was boring. I made hot chocolate, shot off fireworks, and stayed wake till about three watching Ghost Lab.

I went to see Avatar yesterday.

In my opinion it wasn't too great. It ws extremely long and lot's of problems popped up all the time. It was annoying and just dragged on.

So break is almost over and I'm dreading going back to school. The only class I could have with Joey was Law 2 and I failed Law 1. I didn't care for that class and didn't know Joey was in Law 2 till the day before finals. I got a B on the final but it wasn't enough to raise my grade and pass the class. So I'm stuck in computers. I hope there are at least some cool people in that class and not a bunch of boring douchers. I heard the teacher for that class is horrible too and always in a bad mood. That should be fun. Hopefully we get some new kids this semester though and we could make new friends. I'm tired of the kids at my school.

well I'm in a terrible mood so that's all I have to say for now.

Boring post, no pics.

Posted by KaylaDesirae | 12:27 PM