a few nights ago it was a normal night, laying in bed trying to fall asleep doing things on my ipod. i signed into blogger and started catching up on one of the blogs of my friends, Alex, and one of his posts i read three times and got inspired to do something.
i'm going to start writing chapters of my life one time every month. i'm going to just write about big events and what's really going on but in a story form. i'm working on one now but for july and after that one i'm going to write one for august.
this is mainly just for myself so i can look back on it, but if you enjoy the stories that will make me happy. c:
should be interesting.

by the way i lost my camera. :c
i wont have pictures in my blogs until i find it i suppose.
big sad face.

I have a strong feeling this blog won't be very good considering it's four in the morning.
But I'll type one anyway.

My birthday was yesterday (august 13th). I didn't have a birthday party or do anything with my friends really. I'm just not into that; I can't tell you why because I don't know why. I did have two birthday dinners with each side of the family. Its sort of funny because one side of the family has four people at the dinner table and the other we had about thirty. It was awkward because I'm an awkard person. Also I had to sit on the end of the table where everyone could see me. I'm also highly uncomfortable opening presents in front of people. I always think my facial expressions will lead the gift giver to think I hate what they gave me but really i'm just nervous and thinking about how many people are watching me. Not so much the gift. Being the birthday girl and having so much attention isn't really too fun for me.
On the brightside of all that I got $240, books for Paris, and hopefuly Jake sends his wonderful present sometime soon. Excited. :)

anyway today I went over to Jaime's and when we first got there, of course, he beat me at mariokart. Twice. I might be forced to admit I am no longer the master. Jaime is pretty beast. After playing some video games we went on a little stroll to see a place Jaime calls Peru. It's s really open area behind a bunch of houses. It's pretty cool, but not in 105 degree weather. The walk back to his house was dreadful.
Then we got back to his house and swam for only a few minutes until his friend Gavin showed up. I remember him from school but I never talked to him. It was a little awkward but I attempted to stir up a conversation here and there.
After swimming we watched an extremely weird movie and got bored and confused of it so we swam again. That was pretty much my day. Very eventful.

After getting home Miranda and I watched brother bear, home one the range, and corpse bride. I forgot how much I love Disney movies. Everything in them is so cheesey and predictable but I still can watch them over and over.
Miranda also found a spider in the bathroom the size of a golfball, i suppose. It was big. She scampered into the living room freaking saying I need to see it because it's huge; and to bring a shoe. So I did thinking I was totally boss and that I can take care of it, no problem. But I saw it and turned right back around to get my dad. I will never attempt to kill a spider that big. Ugh, spiders. :(
I'm ready for hoodies, jeans, and earmuffs. Tired of summer.

Oh, and I'm starting school this week. Muurr.

Sleepy time. <3

Okay, so i found out I got rid of my blogging app on my iPod so now I'm not so sure on how I'm going to truely keep up on these too well but I'll try.

Lately I've been talking a lot to my old friend, Jaime. We went to his house today and it was pretty fun. Oh, and we as in Miranda and I. We all swam, played mariokart, messed with distortion and effects on his webcam, climbed trees, got on his roof, played guitar hero, learned about dj hero, and just hung out and talked.
This has probably been one of the best days Ive had in a while. I've missed Jaime.
Oh, and here's the video we made.

Well my iPod is about to die an it's five in the morning.
Sign to sleep.
Goodnight. (: <3

- Jason Orf, my godfather, died last weekend. he was like my best friend, when I was little we watched spongebob together because my dad didn't like that show. he also taught me a few tricks in soccer. i remember once he hit me in the stomach with the soccer ball and I got so mad at him. anyway, i'll see him again someday.
-  my dad made plans for me to be doing online school which is fine. i heard it's hard but i think i can do it. my dad said he's going to sell my computer so that i can get my own laptop for school and whatnot. he said he found a few classes i can take for photography too. if i get into those i'll be pretty set and happy. 
- i've been hanging out and talking to a lot of old friends i haven't seen in a while, thanks to facebook. i was never really into facebook for a while then one day i just started getting addicted to uploading my status and reading other peoples. i've missed my friends though.
- i had a thing with a guy and i wont talk much about that considering it's over. i figured i'm pretty content with being single actually. i mean of course since Jake and i are totally getting married one day. 
- i decided on getting snakebites and dying my hair blond, brown, and pink. i'm leaving my mind set on that. i think i've gone through about a million different things i've wanted to do with my hair. i'm so indecisive. 
anyway, miranda and i are going to get our piercings and dye our hair together, it should be a good time.
we're going to look drop dead gorgeous. 
- i've been addicted to tumblr.
go check out mine.
i changed my layout and whatnot; i'm pretty proud of it, bottom line. if you had one follow me, i'll follow you.


i haven't been able to sleep lately. i've been staying up til seven in the morning and taking cat naps all day. i know, not healthy at all, but i can't help it. my mind has been on a lot lately. i've actually had to do a lot just to keep from getting depressed. miranda gave me a stack of books to read. i just finished on of the books, called a story of a girl. it was pretty good and i didn't want it to end. i didn't like the ending. it wasn't like the type of ending that totally ruins the book, it was just a sudden stop that kind of drives you crazy because you know a million things that could happen next and you just hope the author makes a sequel to it one day. 


- oh, and my family came to visit from Florida for two weeks. it was actually kind of awkward because my cousins are so quiet and never talk. i took them places with my friends if they wanted to go, i only took Kiera and i don't know if she enjoyed it very much. i don't know though. i'm rambling.

my friend ty came over one day of the week and miranda, ty, and i decided we wanted to go get some ice cream. before ty got to my house miranda and i walked outside and looked at the sky and it looked crazy. it was the a death storm. we decided "eh, it'll be okay. let's just go get some ice cream" so we did. we got in the car and drove. getting on the main street the wind, of course, picked up and the rain fell harder. it was hard to see out of the windshield so ty pulled over to wait for it to die down for a second but it didn't. we tried to get on the street again and heading down to the next stoplight we heard the loudest thunder ever and all of the street lights went out and the sky turned green. after that we just decided to go back to my house and sit in my room. miranda sat in my closet. 
it was a good life experience. haha.

sorry I never blogged tonight.
I always say i'm going to blog and I never do, but I guess this counts as half a blog? maybe.
I'll blog tomorrow. :3

I love you!

anyway~
i'm not going to get greatly detailed into all of this, there's just a few things i've realized and learned from going through all of this.  
the main thing is, knowing who my friends are. i believe miranda is a great friend and she did hurt me a lot yesterday and i really didn't mind much if she was going to leave me as a friend if she was going to keep being the way she was; hurting me. i do love her a lot as a friend though and my days wouldn't be the same without her, really. they have changed a lot over the past week but i still have her to talk to and be my best friend. i realized no matter what happens between us and any mistakes we make, if she hurts me or i hurt her, it's just better to make up and forget about it because just saying "we're not friends anymore" isn't the best way to handle that if you're actually friends. everything turned out well between us though.
another thing is with knowing who my friends are, I realized who i shouldn't be friends with and i believe it's kayla. i'm not going to get into it as much as i'd like because i'd ramble, but i didn't like how she handled things with me and she stuck up for miranda for the wrong reason and in a bad way. i, quite frankly, am not fond of her at all.

done with all that.

there are two certain sites that i found that i love and that would be cardboardlove and dearmeat. i actually found dearmeat from alex's blog and i'm glad i know it exists now, haha. i've always wanted to do things like what are on those sites. i've always wanted to randomly write things to people if they read them or not. it's fun and interesting. i probably will do something like that in my next blog post actually, watch out. x3lols.