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Sunday
I don't want to talk to you right now, but I decided that I needed to.
Well today pretty much sucked and didn't go the way I wanted it to. I woke up on the couch and Miranda on the other. I got myself to not be lazy and actually get up this morning, brush my teeth, put on pants, and make myself food. I text Joey for a while and we decided I would go over there around two so Miranda and I both started getting all ready to go because I would just take her home on the way to Joey's. Soooo I got to Joey's and I guess we figured we would all (Joey's dad, Joey, and his brother) would watch Zombieland together. I spent my entire time there watching it and television. You have no idea how hard it is to have him sitting on the couch right next you and you have to be there, next to him, for hours doing nothing because his dad is in the room.
Well my mom ended up picking me up early. Seeing him today and not being able to do anything made me miss him more. More than I did before I went to his house. I didn't know that was even possible.
Anyway, things are good with him. We're back together since last Thursday.
Thumbs up to that.
I guess I'll just go onto a bunch of random things now.I tried to stretch my ears but that just didn't work out. At all. I guess I need to wait longer.
I'm just way to impatient.
I got addicted to soda again. I'm not sure if I told you I would stop drinking it or not but whatever. I stopped and I'm addicted again.
I read something on clinical depression and I'm starting to think I have it because I can be absolutely depressed over nothing. Then again I can have these moments where I get happy for no reason.
Maybe I'm bipolar.
Maybe I'm insane.
Either way I don't make since to myself.
I wish I did because I would really love to fix all of these flaws of mine.
I got new glasses.
I miss Jake.
I made a new friend.
An old friend decided she would talk bad about me behind my back and try to make my best friend turn on me. Bad idea.
I tried to go vegan. It failed because my parents don't even know I'm vegetarian.
I'm being starved and it's my own fault.
I wish I could care less about things or care more about myself because most the time I try to help other people I sound hypocritical.
I guess people matter a lot to me.
My friend died this week. I went to his funeral on Thursday. It was sad. It did rain, like it always seems to do on days like that. Tori's mom says that the angels were crying. I don't know why they would, I mean, that wonderful boy gets to see them now. I'd say they should be smiling. Unless they're crying tears of joy. I don't really know.
I've never been around that many people crying over someone. I've never been to a gathering over a person who has passed. It's slightly weird if you sit here and think about it. That's all I did there. I thought. I didn't even cry because I was so lost in thought. I got home and broke down though.
I'll miss you Inaki Lasa, you're sweet smile and your enthusiastic hellos that made me giggle. You made my day every day I got to talk to you. I'll see you again one day.
I just wish I could go away for a while and when I came back everything would be better.
Doesn't everyone wish that though?
I just wish way too much.
Well today pretty much sucked and didn't go the way I wanted it to. I woke up on the couch and Miranda on the other. I got myself to not be lazy and actually get up this morning, brush my teeth, put on pants, and make myself food. I text Joey for a while and we decided I would go over there around two so Miranda and I both started getting all ready to go because I would just take her home on the way to Joey's. Soooo I got to Joey's and I guess we figured we would all (Joey's dad, Joey, and his brother) would watch Zombieland together. I spent my entire time there watching it and television. You have no idea how hard it is to have him sitting on the couch right next you and you have to be there, next to him, for hours doing nothing because his dad is in the room.
Well my mom ended up picking me up early. Seeing him today and not being able to do anything made me miss him more. More than I did before I went to his house. I didn't know that was even possible.
Anyway, things are good with him. We're back together since last Thursday.
Thumbs up to that.
I'm just way to impatient.
I got addicted to soda again. I'm not sure if I told you I would stop drinking it or not but whatever. I stopped and I'm addicted again.
I read something on clinical depression and I'm starting to think I have it because I can be absolutely depressed over nothing. Then again I can have these moments where I get happy for no reason.
Maybe I'm bipolar.
Maybe I'm insane.
Either way I don't make since to myself.
I wish I did because I would really love to fix all of these flaws of mine.
I got new glasses.
I miss Jake.
I made a new friend.
An old friend decided she would talk bad about me behind my back and try to make my best friend turn on me. Bad idea.
I tried to go vegan. It failed because my parents don't even know I'm vegetarian.
I'm being starved and it's my own fault.
I wish I could care less about things or care more about myself because most the time I try to help other people I sound hypocritical.
I guess people matter a lot to me.
My friend died this week. I went to his funeral on Thursday. It was sad. It did rain, like it always seems to do on days like that. Tori's mom says that the angels were crying. I don't know why they would, I mean, that wonderful boy gets to see them now. I'd say they should be smiling. Unless they're crying tears of joy. I don't really know.
I've never been around that many people crying over someone. I've never been to a gathering over a person who has passed. It's slightly weird if you sit here and think about it. That's all I did there. I thought. I didn't even cry because I was so lost in thought. I got home and broke down though.
I'll miss you Inaki Lasa, you're sweet smile and your enthusiastic hellos that made me giggle. You made my day every day I got to talk to you. I'll see you again one day.
I just wish I could go away for a while and when I came back everything would be better.
Doesn't everyone wish that though?
I just wish way too much.
That's all folks.
