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Wednesday
Hey strangers.
So lately I've felt like I've been letting time slip by me too much. I've been lazy too, yet still so caught up with things that I think are pointless. I think if people would stop thinking about what they need to do and be in the moment and do what they want, life would be so much better. I'm sure we're not on this earth to work all of the time and not be happy. People seem to believe that. Living shouldn't be a chore, it should be enjoyable.
I've been thinking that I really want a bunny for a pet but my mom would never let me get one. Maybe when I move out I'll get one, and that shouldn't be too far away from now. Maybe a year or two away.
I hope to do Drivers Ed in April with Miranda too.
I need to go shopping for more clothes. I've really been interested with urban outfitters.
They have the most amazing clothes. I'm also debating on leaving my hair brown or dying it black again. I really do like the red in my bangs though and that would just look weird with brown.Black just seems too dark for me. Hm.
I think I need a job so I can get money for a new camera. I really want to get better in photography and with my crappy digital camera that I drop way too often, I'm sure I wont get too far with it.
Back to this one subject from my last blog post how I wish I could just get away;
I definitely do plan on going to visit Jake in New Jersey when I turn eighteen. I'm going to Europe over the summer. Hopefully.
When I move out after a year or two I think I'll move to Missouri. It seems so far away from everything; from what I've seen. Last time I visited the town was in the middle of a bunch of huge hills everywhere it was so little.
That's what I want.
I honestly with no doubt about it would just love to be away from my parents for at least a year. No idea if you've ever felt like that but when they're on you about absolutely everything things seem like they would be way more stress free without them. I'm positive if I lived alone I would have straight A's in school.
Well now I'm just rambling.
I don't have anything to say about Joey in this blog interesting enough for you to know.
Maybe I should blog more often so they don't turn out like this going all over the place. haha. I plan on spending my time more wisely and hopefully spending more time with Joey.
Time for piano and writing.
Time for school.
&Time for friends
Blahblahblah.
Hey by the way;
This picture would be one of my greatest memories. I found it the other day and had to blog it. :3
It's me and my grandpa driving this golf cart at the lake. I drove that thing everywhere and thought I was the coolest kid with my golf cart license and pimped out cart with flags that blew in the wind.
I was the coolest of the cool.
anyways, don't laugh.
Peacealate,bro ha.
Sunday
I don't want to talk to you right now, but I decided that I needed to.
Well today pretty much sucked and didn't go the way I wanted it to. I woke up on the couch and Miranda on the other. I got myself to not be lazy and actually get up this morning, brush my teeth, put on pants, and make myself food. I text Joey for a while and we decided I would go over there around two so Miranda and I both started getting all ready to go because I would just take her home on the way to Joey's. Soooo I got to Joey's and I guess we figured we would all (Joey's dad, Joey, and his brother) would watch Zombieland together. I spent my entire time there watching it and television. You have no idea how hard it is to have him sitting on the couch right next you and you have to be there, next to him, for hours doing nothing because his dad is in the room.
Well my mom ended up picking me up early. Seeing him today and not being able to do anything made me miss him more. More than I did before I went to his house. I didn't know that was even possible.
Anyway, things are good with him. We're back together since last Thursday.
Thumbs up to that.
I guess I'll just go onto a bunch of random things now.I tried to stretch my ears but that just didn't work out. At all. I guess I need to wait longer.
I'm just way to impatient.
I got addicted to soda again. I'm not sure if I told you I would stop drinking it or not but whatever. I stopped and I'm addicted again.
I read something on clinical depression and I'm starting to think I have it because I can be absolutely depressed over nothing. Then again I can have these moments where I get happy for no reason.
Maybe I'm bipolar.
Maybe I'm insane.
Either way I don't make since to myself.
I wish I did because I would really love to fix all of these flaws of mine.
I got new glasses.
I miss Jake.
I made a new friend.
An old friend decided she would talk bad about me behind my back and try to make my best friend turn on me. Bad idea.
I tried to go vegan. It failed because my parents don't even know I'm vegetarian.
I'm being starved and it's my own fault.
I wish I could care less about things or care more about myself because most the time I try to help other people I sound hypocritical.
I guess people matter a lot to me.
My friend died this week. I went to his funeral on Thursday. It was sad. It did rain, like it always seems to do on days like that. Tori's mom says that the angels were crying. I don't know why they would, I mean, that wonderful boy gets to see them now. I'd say they should be smiling. Unless they're crying tears of joy. I don't really know.
I've never been around that many people crying over someone. I've never been to a gathering over a person who has passed. It's slightly weird if you sit here and think about it. That's all I did there. I thought. I didn't even cry because I was so lost in thought. I got home and broke down though.
I'll miss you Inaki Lasa, you're sweet smile and your enthusiastic hellos that made me giggle. You made my day every day I got to talk to you. I'll see you again one day.
I just wish I could go away for a while and when I came back everything would be better.
Doesn't everyone wish that though?
I just wish way too much.
Well today pretty much sucked and didn't go the way I wanted it to. I woke up on the couch and Miranda on the other. I got myself to not be lazy and actually get up this morning, brush my teeth, put on pants, and make myself food. I text Joey for a while and we decided I would go over there around two so Miranda and I both started getting all ready to go because I would just take her home on the way to Joey's. Soooo I got to Joey's and I guess we figured we would all (Joey's dad, Joey, and his brother) would watch Zombieland together. I spent my entire time there watching it and television. You have no idea how hard it is to have him sitting on the couch right next you and you have to be there, next to him, for hours doing nothing because his dad is in the room.
Well my mom ended up picking me up early. Seeing him today and not being able to do anything made me miss him more. More than I did before I went to his house. I didn't know that was even possible.
Anyway, things are good with him. We're back together since last Thursday.
Thumbs up to that.
I'm just way to impatient.
I got addicted to soda again. I'm not sure if I told you I would stop drinking it or not but whatever. I stopped and I'm addicted again.
I read something on clinical depression and I'm starting to think I have it because I can be absolutely depressed over nothing. Then again I can have these moments where I get happy for no reason.
Maybe I'm bipolar.
Maybe I'm insane.
Either way I don't make since to myself.
I wish I did because I would really love to fix all of these flaws of mine.
I got new glasses.
I miss Jake.
I made a new friend.
An old friend decided she would talk bad about me behind my back and try to make my best friend turn on me. Bad idea.
I tried to go vegan. It failed because my parents don't even know I'm vegetarian.
I'm being starved and it's my own fault.
I wish I could care less about things or care more about myself because most the time I try to help other people I sound hypocritical.
I guess people matter a lot to me.
My friend died this week. I went to his funeral on Thursday. It was sad. It did rain, like it always seems to do on days like that. Tori's mom says that the angels were crying. I don't know why they would, I mean, that wonderful boy gets to see them now. I'd say they should be smiling. Unless they're crying tears of joy. I don't really know.
I've never been around that many people crying over someone. I've never been to a gathering over a person who has passed. It's slightly weird if you sit here and think about it. That's all I did there. I thought. I didn't even cry because I was so lost in thought. I got home and broke down though.
I'll miss you Inaki Lasa, you're sweet smile and your enthusiastic hellos that made me giggle. You made my day every day I got to talk to you. I'll see you again one day.
I just wish I could go away for a while and when I came back everything would be better.
Doesn't everyone wish that though?
I just wish way too much.
That's all folks.
