Darling read my lips, we're going down like sinking ships.

Perfect Imperfection;

Thursday

Sunday;

After that horrible Friday I last posted about was over, I sat around all Saturday doing nothing. Sunday I woke up feeling depressed and didn't feel like even talking to anyone or going anywhere. I was tired of everything. Tori had called me though, pretty much five minutes after I woke up asking if I wanted to go to her dad's house with her and help sell her puppies. Her dog had puppies a while back and they were old enough to finally sell. Which was, of course, sad to have to see them go. I did miss Tori and the puppies though and I just had to see them one last time. It would give me something to do besides moping around. So I decided to go. I got my lazy self up, took a shower, and got dressed. Tori randomly showed up at my house and I wasn't ready so I went out looking terrible, but at that moment I could care less about how I looked.

So we went to gather the puppies from the house and we drove to the corner of Reasors and stood around in the cold for maybe three or four hours. For the last hour I sat in the car holding my favorite puppy out of the bunch, Eyore. Her dad came up and said the people that wanted him was there. It was very very sad. Eyore had the saddest look of them all. That's how he got his adorable name.

After all the puppies that needed to be sold were sold we ended up going to Tori's moms house with the two puppies that weren't taken. Luna was the one puppy Tori got to keep and Sadey was going to Texas the next day to her owner. We gave them both bathes and let them run around the living room. After all of that jazz I went home and went straight to bed.

Monday;

A boring normal day that had no point to it whats so ever.

Tuesday;

I'd say was one of the worst days of my life. Out of many. Joey and I had big fights over about three different things. The day started off perfect and lunch came and being myself, I ruined the day. Not very surprising, I do it a lot. I regret the way I acted and I wished that day had never happened. It was ridiculous. I didn't eat. I couldn't breathe correctly. I couldn't concentrate. I couldn't stop crying. I couldn't do anything. When night came nothing was better. I couldn't sleep. Everything I hate happened in one day. I hate being scared over things and I hate crying.

I honestly try to be perfect all the time. I try to fix every little thing that's bad about me and it stresses me out even more than I was before. It's confusing and complicated and I wish I wasn't like that.

Anyways,

I also hate stupid teachers that are insanely stealthy sneak up on you when you least expect it, and take your phone away. I was mad.

My dad had to come up to the school and get it for me. I guess that's a good thing though because if I had to deal with the lady at the desk again I probably would have cursed at her. I already wasn't in a good mood and she never has a good additude with anyone and she has a stupid tone in her voice that makes you want to scream at her.

Wednesday;

Things got better. I was better. He was better. I was happy and so was he. He got to come over after school and it was great, for the most part. I cried. Shocker. We ended up having a lot of fun though and I could relax again and just be happy as I ever am with him knowing things will be okay and that he's okay. Nothing special happened that day though except that we watched a movie in Law class and I got candy from Matt. Whoop.

Today;

Was confusing. I really have nothing to say about today. I thought I had more to say about other days, so much has happened. The way I'm putting them makes it seem as if nothing has and my life is boring as fuck. No.

I also wish Jake would get on more. He needs to give me a smile when no one else will.

Halloween is comming up. Pretty much one day from now. It seems like it's far away but I guess it's not. I don't actually have any plans made because I have no clue what's going on. It's like this every year when every says they're having a Halloween party and it never happends. It's stupid and I'm not planning on going to anyones party that wont happen. I only hope Joey can come and be with me on my favorite day of the year but I doubt he can. If he can't Tori will just come over and we'll walk around neighborhoods for hours. She'll probably bring Richie which is cool. My family is having a party and I'm not exactly sure if I even want to be home Halloween night. I'll sleep on the streets. Yeah.

I don't even know what to look forward to anymore.

I've been let down a lot lately. It's hard to be in a good mood right now.

Even harder when you can't sleep it off because your thoughts just wont let you sleep.

They wont even let me concentrate when I'm awake.

ConfusedConfusedConfused.

Posted by KaylaDesirae | 5:00 PM